You have been pretty mixed so far.
January I had a wonderful holiday to Bali with my daughter. The first holiday we’ve had together since she was 12. It was great to spend time with her in a beautiful and relaxed environment. It did wonders for her fatigue. We stayed in a full board Ayurvedic retreat and she absolutely thrived. As did I.
February, friends came to stay for a few days. Their lives are in transition. Husband has worked overseas for decades. She has shuttled between continents, raising children, managing poor health. Finally the time has come to can the air miles, settle back home and enjoy time with children, grandchildren and ageing parents. I had some time away to deal with health issues related to my back. The weather was incredible. It was during that amazing heat wave when it felt like spring had gone on holiday and let summer cover her annual leave. I went for long walks in the countryside and felt so restored and rejuvenated. Being in a rural environment was a turning point. The idea took root – I realised it might be time to leave the city.
March is only mid way through but the feeling that I need to change my life has not gone away. My back has continued to give me problems to the point I had to take a week off work when it spasmed and I was unable to walk more than a few steps. The pain killers knock me sideways. I think my body is trying to send me a big loud message: what are you doing? Maybe this is my ‘mid life crisis’. “Crisis” is such an overused word. I shall call it my mid life review. I spend a lot of my time being ‘busy’ – constantly researching and arranging things, whether trips away or refurbing our home. It’s time to channel that energy into arranging the next chapter. Much to think about.